My parents especially my father is cruel to me, over the years my health deteriorated, seizures, stress, panic attacks, anxiety. I chose different things for myself my health is bit better, im not married i get suicidal thoughts, I ask dua to my Rabb. I don’t know how to survive with such people.

Ustadh AbdulAziz al-Haqqan

Without a doubt, seek a trustworthy Muslim doctor regarding this and follow their instructions. Do not give room for anyone to harm you even if it is your parent, and focus on healing.