Do you have advice to know that i am doing well? I have alot of negative toughts that i am not doing good.

I advise you to make the adhkar and the ruqyah, and to shed away negative thoughts, sadness, and anything that leads to them. As you know, in our religion, this is something that is not praiseworthy. Actually, it is something our religion gave us remedies for: how to get rid of it and how to stay away from it. Therefore, the opposite is what is praiseworthy and encouraged in our religion, which is: 1. Positivity 2. Being active and not lazy 3. Happiness and spreading happiness 4. Bringing joy to others and getting rewarded for All of that